As of now, I'm currently STARVING. I just lost my linner (lunch & dinner) to my sink. This feeling is kinda weird, its like.. you're hungry, but you just don't wanna eat. Like, if I were to make somethin' for myself. I wouldn't have the appetite to eat it. Is this normal? Well, I'm kinda treating it as a good thing since I have a excuse to lose weight and all.

Anyway, I'm currently suffering from Food Poisoning. Well, I sufferED from Food Poisoning. I'm feeling kinda better now since everything bad I ate ended up in my sink. Weird thing is, I don't think this is Food Poisoning, since I've never gotten it before. I don't know what's wrong with me. Whenever I try to eat something, I just lose my appetite. I feel really weak and I can't read/think properly. My stomach feels like as though it's filled with helium and that it could burst any moment now. I'm spending my day in the toilet half of the time. And.. I don't feel like eating chocolates! ...GASP.

But yeah, whatever it is, it involves food. BAD food. Well, whatever it is.. I just hope that I'll be able to eat chocolates normally tomorrow. ;)
 

I didn't go to school today, cause I was feeling kinda down. I was thinking to myself about some stuff yesterday, and I think that affected my mind today. Anyway, I went to WhiteSands today to get some rabbit food. I just found out that they ran out of food today, so I took the dignity to get my sorry ass down to WhiteSands in the blistering hot sun. I got ready, got out of the house and walked to the bus stop. Here's where the funny part starts. I tend to glance at people, I don't know why. I think it's a habit. But whatever, I glance at people.

So there was this lady/girl she was kinda young. Not bad looking, wearing a REALLY REALLY REALLY short flowery dress. It was SO short that she actually had to stand cause if she were to sit.. well, let's just say she'll be a priority target for rapists. So anyway, she walked past me and sat (yes, she actually sat. How brave can she be?) on the seat. So, being myself, I glanced at her direction. Then, looked away. I didn't wanna make it too obvious since there were people around at the bus stop as well. So I was practically glancing here and there. Then I noticed something, there were this couple standing right next to the girl. The husband, was staring at her legs. Staring and looking from head to toe. And his wife was like; "Are you listening?" And he goes; "Uh.. yeah yeah. What were you saying again?"

I smiled.

Then there was this OTHER couple who walked in from behind me, stood infront of me (which was on the left-hand side of the girl), and the husband/boyfriend stared at the girl as well. I was like; "Hey wtf? You're married / attached. So stop fuggin' staring." The girl didn't mind btw, she was half of the time messaging on the phone, so she didn't realize the commotion she was starting.

So anyway, the bus arrived and COINCIDENTALLY both the couples, the girl AND me boarded the SAME bus. The funny thing is, both the couples waited for the girl to get into the bus first, I'm guessing it's cause they wanted to look at her ass or something. And true enough, they had their eyes GLUED on her ass. It was about this time when I actually laughed. I felt like my face was cracking to give way to the smile, seems like I wasn't smiling the whole morning.

ANYWAYYYYYYY. She went to the back and sat. I went to the seat behind her. So, the distance from my bus stop to WhiteSands was about.. 10 mins? Which is.. 2 bus stops away. So, the next busstop, an auntie boarded, and sat next to the girl. SHE TOO was staring at her legs.

I smiled again.

Then, the we all unloaded the bus and she.. vanished? I guess she was in a hurry or something. Well, I guess the moral of the story is.. couples aren't getting enough sex? LOL! Well, whatever. Guys always have perverted minds. Be it in a couple or out of one. ;)

Oh and btw, I'm sure you guys are thinking; I'm sure Stein was staring at her ass too. To tell you the truth, it'll be a miracle if I didn't. Her dress was REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY short. Like.. if it was just a lil' bit shorter, I would be able to see her.. underwear. Really, if you were a guy, and was beside me, you'd be staring as well. No doubt about that.

Well, that concludes my really perverted entry for today. I just wanna apologize to anyone who feels.. insecure or offended about this entry. It's just a guy thing. ;)

 

First off, why should I care about how you looked like when you were in your secondary school days? I mean c'mon.. the day we look the worst is during secondary school time. I mean, I was buttass ugly during secondary school times too. (not saying that I look any better now..) I remember I wore my pants like.. REALLY high so that the ends of the pants don't touch the floor. What's worse, we had to tuck in our shirt, so you can actually see how high my pants were. I had loads of pimples, blackheads, whiteheads, purpleheads.. whateverheads, heck, I wouldn't even be surprised if aliens were to be living in my potholes. I didn't shave, I had a WICKED mustache at that time. You can imagine how I looked like.. I look like one of the tribesmen from the Himalayas. Everyday, I curse and swear at my graduation photo, cause I look like a dick. Heck, I think a dick looks better than me. >.>

My point is.. So what? Y'know, it's kinda surprising that you were actually KINDA bothered about this. I was practically laughing my ass off when I saw that picture. Hahaha! It definitely made my day. I'm sure if I upload mine, it'd make your day as well. Don't worry about lying and all that crap. I don't care. The person I had fun with on the phone is enough for me to fall in love with. And that's all that matters. I didn't even need to meet you. I didn't even need to see your picture. The picture of yourself that you showed me during secondary 4, was just a bonus.

Bah, but what the heck. That was the past. Look at you now. You've changed SO much. But thanks, thanks for telling me the truth.

P.S. PLEASE don't waste your birthday wish on this. Wish for something better! Like.. a packet of Tim Tams and a cup of Milo or something. ;)

 

 Can't believe you're already 18, wow, listen to me, I sound like a Mum. Well, whatever. Time really flies, I remembered like.. 4 years ago (maybe less, maybe more) Mervin and me was playing MapleStory. We decided to go and train (I think) at some random spot. He was like.. level 30+ and I was like.. 30+ too. Then we went to that place, and we met this NOOB. She was a thief, barely in her 20's. She was wearing full black equipment. (Sheesh I sound like a geek)

And for some reason, that thief just wanted our numbers? I think she called Mervin first. Then Mervin called me and we started talking a lil' bit about you. So I was kinda worried when she asked for mine. So anyhows, I gave it to her and like.. 5 secs later, she called. Yes, 5 seconds later. I was kinda freaked out about how fast her reflexes were. But I answered, and we chatted on the phone. My first impressions of her? You were.. unique. I can never forget your laughter. It sounded like.. "HE HE HEEEE." And EVERY SINGLE TIME she did that, I felt a shiver down my spine. It was freaky, but kinda funny at the same time. Then, after that night we got to know each other. I told her my name and she told me hers.

Her name was Sherena.

We got to know each other. And sooner or later, we were talking on the phone for hours and hours. Like we were best buddies. BUT, I can't remember why, we lost contact for about.. 2 years? And I re-met you again during sec 4. That was around your exams period. I remembered how you studied as if the world was gonna end tomorrow. Every single time I would message you, and you would tell me you were at the library or had your face dug into a book. She was always telling me about how she wanted to get into LASALLE. It was kinda sad y'know, I felt kinda alone. Hahaha, but what the heck? It was for your exams. Then, I remembered I wanted to confess to you AFTER your exams. But I think it leaked out before that. I was afraid you would get distracted or something.

Bah, memories, memories. But hey, look at you now. You're doing well in Republic Poly. You're modeling. I hope you didn't stop playing the piano! :( And I hope John Darling is still doing fine. I probably didn't tell you this before but.. I'm really proud of you. I'm really proud that right now, you're doing something that you WANT to do (hopefully) And always remember this, whatever path you take, whatever decisions you make, I'll be there to encourage you along the way. :)

Happy Birthday. :)

Just wanna wish my really good (& distant) friend a very very very happy 18th birthday!

Here's your present! Muahaha.

It's kinda small but.. Hope you can see it!

Well, I just wanna wish you a happy birthday again. Even though you're 18, you're still younger than me. And that's a FACT! ;) Enjoy your birthday and have a good one! ;)

As I am typing this entry, I'm currently downloading TWO PSP games. Wild Arms XF & Final Fantasy VIII. And, as I like to call it: It's taking FOR-FUGGIN'-EVER! Yes, the downloading speed of it is like.. watching grass grow. No worse, it's like watching a chess match in the middle of the field with grass growing! (Okay, lame) Bah, whatever. At least I managed to DOWNLOAD it. What's better, it's free.

So anyway, I'm 18. That means that I gotta get my ass into National Service soon, but before I can do that, I hafta fill in a million-and-one forms. Both online and on paper. Sheesh, the very thought of me going into the army is totally.. RIDICULOUS. I can't believe I'm growing so fast! It's like one moment, I was still drinking milk out of a bottle and the next, I'm watching porn! Time flies amazingly fast, seriously. Sooner or later, I'm gonna type in another entry 2 years later after I officially got booked out of NS saying: "Time flies! I remember when I was sitting on my chair typing about the worries I had before I went into the army! Sheesh, what I pussy I was.."

>.>

Anyway, I'm gonna go play DotA with Mervin now. KTHXBAI.

 

It is currently 10:02pm at night. Does anyone else notice that today's been kinda chilly? I mean, I actually feel COLD in this god-forsaken desert of a country/continent/island. Maybe it's cause it was raining a few days ago or something. Or maybe the planet's decided to align earlier and the Poles are shifting nearer to Singapore or something. Whatever it is, I think it's bad. Speaking of the world coming to an end, I watched a documentary about the world coming to an end. Apparently the North/South Poles are melting at a incredibly fast rate. Causing the sea levels to rise. In another.. 20 years time, Changi Beach would be fully submerged in water. Chek Jawa would cease to exist. And the Crab Island of Pasir Ris Park would disappear. And of course, I'm lying. BUT! I do know that Singapore would be the next Atlantis if we don't do something about global warming! SIGH! Well, whatever it is.. I needa get my driver's license before I die. :(

About today, I went to get my haircut. According to my sister, I look like a friggin' pre-mature Durian. Which is kinda true when I look at myself in the mirror. Let's just hope that I can 'save the day' with some wax and probably a lil' bit of hairspray. ALSO, I noticed that my hairline is receding. Which is the fuggin' end of the world for me. I can't believe that I actually INHERITED this crap. Damn! Now, in another 10 years time I hafta actually invest in a friggin' wig! Jeezus. :(

 

You have a goal. We all wanna reach and attain our goals. But what if your goals were never to be reached in the first place? You try and try, in the end, nothing ever works out for you. You keep telling yourself that it's just around the corner. The fact is, you're light years away from it. The only thing that's keeping you going is self-motivation. You don't wanna tell your friends cause you're afraid they might think you're pathetic. And deep inside.. you actually ARE pathetic.

You have friends. Friends that force a smile on your face everytime you go to school. Sometimes, it just pains you to smile, but you have to do it. Cuz' if you don't, you'll get spammed with questions about why you're looking dull or sad. If you're the type of person that likes to keep everything inside, then you'd say: "Oh nothin', I'm just tired. I didn't sleep well yesterday" Then you'd laugh it off. If you're the type that loves attention you'd probably want to put on a sad face, act all moody infront of your friends WAITING for that question: "Eh, are you okay?" Then, you'd just blah everything out. Whatever the method is, it just doesn't solve anything. Sure, it might make you feel better, but nothing is solved.

You have a home. You reach home, go to your room, lie on your bed and stare at your ceiling. Your mum reminds you that dinner is ready. You ignore her. She reminds you again. You get irritated. All you want is to be alone, but the fact is.. all you want is company. Your friends at school today, they didn't do shit for you. All they could think about, is themselves. You hate it when you tell your friends about your problems, they relate it with THEIR problems, then it suddenly became 'your friend's problem'. You just want your ME time for once. You'd want a friend who would just sit down next to you, and listen. Listen to all your crap all your problems. So what do you do? You find something to do that helps take your mind off things.

You have a computer. You play games, cause it helps take your mind off things. Problem is, you can't be playing a game forever. Eventually you're gonna stop. And when you do, the problems just start pouring in again. You have a Facebook account. You post what you truly feel on your wall. People 'Like' it. How the fuck can people 'Like' your problem? You ignore it. Instead, you read what's on the comments. And you find your older friends posting lame jokes in attempt to try to make you feel better. But no, you're not in the mood for jokes. So what do you do?

You have a blog. You post an entry about your problems. You write down, everything, down to the last detail. And when you finish that post, you end it with a fullstop. You start to read it. From top to bottom. Then you'd think to yourself. What if my friends get offended about what I say? What if, my mum reads this? Or.. What if I die tomorrow? Then you'd edit your post. Writing things that aren't really true, cause you're afraid about what you post, might offend your friends. So you post crap. In the end, you get the message across to people: "Hey, I'm sad." but what you're trying to say is.. "Hey, I have a problem. Help me?"

So, after all the crap's been said and done. It just goes back to square one. You go to school, feeling fucked up. And your friends in school? Hah, they couldn't give a fuck about you.

-But hey, you have a home. You have a computer. You have games. You have a Facebook wall. You have a blog. Doesn't that make you feel better?

The Tim Tam Slam? Hahaha. Apparently that's what the Aussies call it. Just in case you people don't know.. Tim Tam Slam is basically a technique to eating Tim Tam. Tim Tam is a REALLY good chocolate. It's kinda like Kit Kat, it has biscuit inbetween and it comes in different chocolate flavours. Dark chocolate, white chocolate.. original chocolate etc etc.. So lemme explain how Tim Tam Slam works; First, you need a hot cup of really CHOCOLATEY Milo. Then, take a Tim Tam. Bite off the top and bottom, revealing the biscuit. Dip one end of the Tim Tam into the Milo, and suck from the other end. Oh and.. SUCK HARD. Then, when you're done, put the remains of the Tim Tam in your mouth.

-As instructed from a friend. ;)

Well, it was amazing. That's for sure. What's better, I used the "Dark Chocolate" Tim Tam. Which makes it DOUBLY BETTER! Okay, I'm gonna get fat. I'd better start jogging again. :(